A slight re-design is in Order!!!


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I really want to eat this Candy Bar

But I don't want that guy across from me seeing me eat and making stereotypical assumptions, like "I'm a greedy hog" or "no wonder he is so big" because I'm fat...... Sigh

Great Romantic Comedy Worth Checking Out:

Amazing Music: Florence + The Machine

Interesting Drama Flick: Cherrybomb

Fail Parenting

In the shocking video above, a father punishes his son for misbehaving two days in a row at school by shaving his hair and eyebrows off, whopping him with a belt, and making him publicly do exhausting exercises, all while using explicit language. The video was made popular by website MediaTakeOut.com, I was shock and disgusted to see most of the comments were in favor of what the father did.

Its disgusting, humiliating and barbaric. To film this whole thing and to use such language is pitiful, this man fails as a parent, at one point he asks the child "don't you think I have better things to do" like what, beating someone else perhaps? Judging by the way the man dressed like a fourteen year old high school punk, he doesn't have much going on. Child protective services should be called, this guy shouldn't be allowed to hit beat and humiliate this child anymore.

If parents truly knew how to parent, and knew how to teach kids values, rights and wrong and meaning, able to explain to them why they cant do things and  why is important to act a certain way and not just tell them no and expect that's all it takes, then they wouldn't need to resort to beating their kids. All that child is learning is to fear, all he is learning is to be afraid of his father, and all he is gaining is latent frustration, hostility and aggression.

This is wrong!

Venting

To say I've been falling behind in math is a bit of an understatement, in fact I'm all around flopping. Math has been my weakest area of skill for as long as I could remember, and it's gotten worse. Since this math class started I've struggled entirely do to multiplication and since division is multiplication backwards, I'm bombing there too.

What's irking me is how my professor has been dealing with my lagging, and that's by not doing anything at all. I tell her I'm not picking these things up, while in an empty class with 10 minutes left, and she tells me I'm welcome to visit her during her office hours! Then there is today she tells me she wants to see me after class, I think she's going to offer some help and advice, but turns out she's basically telling me I should drop the class and seek 1on1 tutoring! This is what is wrong with the system, teachers that simply do not care. It wasn't acceptable in grade school and it isn't acceptable now, especially now that I'm paying 20 grand a year to learn this crap!

The Person That Invented Division, I'm Coming For You!

Hater (n.):
A person that simply cannot be happy for another person’s success. Instead of giving acknowledgment in courtesy, a hater often pursues his/her point by exposing a flaw in the target subject. Hating, the result of being a hater, is not exactly jealousy. The hater doesn’t really want to be the person he or she hates, rather the hater wants to knock someone else down a notch.

Lol

Good Read

Decent Romantic Comedy Flick Worth Checking Out

Good Read

Amazing Music: Florence + The Machine

Amazing Music: Sinatra

Voice

Yesterday in my socio-cultural class we talked about a range of things, what is democracy, what does it mean, what are values whats the teachers role in education, how would the educational system differ if students had a bigger role in the class room. 

I had a lot to say, I had a lot of opinions and thoughts on the subject matter and yet I wasn't able to luster up my voice until mid class and then it was very brief, I kind of felt like, where is my identity? Everyone's voice sounded so strong and powerful to a sense and they were so easily saying what they were thinking there were so many times I had something to say but remained silent.

I'm having a hard time speaking up, which sucks because I have a lot to say, I dont know where to begin on improving this either. Hopefully in time over the course of this class it will come naturally and I wont have an issue with speaking up and voicing ones opinion 

How Am I Suppose to Fit In This?!

One of my classes today switched rooms permanently and this is what we had to sit in except it had a build in arm rest as well its as-if it were designed for 3rd graders

How Am I suppose to fit all of me in one of those! Its hell

Three Classes Today

Video Music Awards Are Irelevent

After watching I just cant figure what the point is, the show is more like the american music awards or the billboard awards where the bigger hit the song is the better chance an artist has to win. The video component to the show means basically nothing, its politics why do they keep giving Britney awards she doesn't deserve for mediocre boring videos, why did they give her a cheap tribute but promoted it like it was a big deal, why do they kiss her ass (along with Foo Fighters and 30 Seconds To Mars).


Adele had one of the biggest hits of the year with Rolling In The Deep, the video is a snooze fest and honestly does nothing for the song or its message and certainly doesn't deserve a single nomination for a video music award  , yet the video walked away with three awards.


Katy Perry walked away with Video Of The Year for Firework. Lady Gaga walked away for Video With The Best Message, the issue I have with that is Firework and Born This Way are one of the same and the message behind the Born This Way video is none, the song is about being who you are and being proud of it, so why is Lady Gaga walking around with fake gap teeth, facial prosthetic and weird alien imagery. The message of the video seems contrary to the message of the song.


Beyonce had one of the best videos this year, the song itself didn't do very well, the video got one nomination for choreography the song Run The World (Girls), a female pride anthem, was missing from the Best female video category and was easily better than the actual nominated videos.


Combine this with all the bad  and irrelevant presenters terrible jokes and some rather predictable and boring performances, the show just seems like a waste of space specially while its airing on a channel that's called Music Television but its programming consists of less 5% of music and 95% reality TV

Homework Completed!

Why is Angelina Jolie allowed to wear terrible wigs in movies and not be called out on it? Shes a repeat offender, this shouldn't be tolerated to be honest

Homework Day

I guess Ill do all the homework I've been given finally

Decent Great Drama Flick Worth Checking Out

Decent Comedy Flick Worth Checking Out

Amazing Music: Metric

Where's Wall-E

Public Speaking

I had my first Public Speaking class today, what I didn't know is was that Tuesday was the actual day I was suppose to start this class. I received and email from my teacher alerting me of my absence after which i decided to see what the class was all about.


To be honest, I didn't know what I had gotten myself into. Its a required class for my major but I underestimated exactly was it meant to be in public speaking. Once I went over the assignment and realized in depth what everything was about, panic ensued and when I realized a speech was do in the very next day I died a little, the horror. 


The speech was rather simple "If I could have an evening of conversation with anyone dead or alive who would it be and why". I already had someone in mind, Kevin James, however the very thought of standing in front of that class in front of people I don't know was terrifying but then something happened, and I just realized that the build up is worse than the actual act, that waiting makes everything only 100 times worse, your worry about your execution you cant concentrate on what the people before you are saying, your a mess.




So I decided I would volunteer to go first not because my story was so amazing but because it was better that way I force the pressure on the speech itself and not the act of doing it and when class started and the time came for these speeches, yup, I volunteered and went first I introduced myself and began my story and before I knew it was over, I was sort of amazing in a lame but not lame way. A personal triumph if you will.


This will be an interesting adventure 


My speech

If I could have an evening of conversation with anyone dead or alive, I would choose Kevin James the actor. You may know him from the tv series The King Of Queens or the movie Paul Blart Mall Cop, Grown Ups and more recently The Dilemma and Zoo Keeper
 I’ve always found Kevin to be inspiring he is a bigger guy and you don’t normally see them as the lead star in movies. His show was on the air for 10 years, 8 Seasons. He now stars alongside actors like Adam Sandler, Vince Vaughn and even Will Smith.
 I would ask him questions like how does he deal with nerves and how did he gather up the moxie to do standup or to just tell jokes to someone in general I think it takes a lot for someone to tell a joke to someone they don’t know with the intention of making them laugh, it’s a lot of pressure
 One of the things I admire about him is that he keeps his work and family life separate he is married his wife is also an actor and has a daughter but he is not the type to have his infant child plastered on the cover of some gossip magazine for press. Another thing I like is that he still does standup comedy from time to time which is how he got his start.
 Its always nice to see someone you can relate to on the big or small screen and I feel l see a lot of myself in him and some of the characters he’s played over the years and for all this is why I’d pick Kevin James to have an evening of conversation if I could choose anyone dead or alive.

Lyric Websites That Dont Let me Copy & Paste

Good Comedy Flick Brings the LOL's

I Came To A Decision Today

And that decisions was to start being happy, to start letting go I mean really letting go. I have so many issues with  myself I'm too fat, I'm too ugly, I'm not smart enough, I hate my voice, I hate my laugh, I don't like my personality the list goes on. I'm never going to get anywhere In life if I keep holding myself back.


I'm going to college now and after one day I realized I need to evolve but not on the outside that can come later, I need to evolve on the inside and now get out of all these toxic mindsets and realize something, I am who I am. Accept me for me and be OK with the people who don't cause I have friends I have family and that's what matters.


I know I'm a good person so if some random person doesn't want something to do with me because of my appearance or because of the things I'm into or the lack of things I'm into then so what, life goes on

Decent Horror Flick Worth Checking Out

If I Were Spiderman

I swallow the sound and it swallows me wholeTill there's nothing left inside my soulAs empty as that beating drumBut the song has just begun

So about my social anxiety and its almost crippling post and pre effects it has on me, I start college tomorrow but had to go in to get books and get some other things situated and the anxiety was overwhelming combined with my crippling low self esteem and my speaking volume goes from a average of 8 down to .01


I need to get this under control. Not ready for this school thing, but its here

Yeah that is how my awesome action moment would turn out

Got to be smarter than the machine

My late night snack hunt escapades

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a mapAnd knew that somehow I could find my way backThen I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness tooSo I stayed in the darkness with you